Life Begins When?

This is hard for me to write. I don't want to admit what I consider to be my biggest failure, my daily temptation. But if I write it down, I think it will help me with my accountability. It will help me remember why we are choosing to do something that goes against today's norm; against what society tells us is the only "smart thing to do", the "only realistic and logical way to plan our family".

I think about taking birth control daily, but I don't because I know it's wrong. It's wrong for us because we know how it truly works. It may make family planning a whole heck of a lot easier, but I don't want to ever wonder if I prevented a child for us to love or a sibling for my children to play with. I don't ever want to wonder if  because of my selfish wants and desires{planning our family using artificial contraception} I have a child waiting for me in Heaven because a form of birth control prevented me from meeting him or her in person.

Have you ever thought about it? Do you know how birth control really works? Let's answer the next question first. When does life begin? I know not everyone will agree, but I think it's safe to say that most Christians say "At conception".

If that is the case, which I believe it is, then you are carrying a CHILD from that very moment.

Now lets back track a little bit. 

Artificial birth control is designed to "trick" a women's body into thinking that she is already pregnant. It is designed to make a women's uterus a "hostile environment".

So, if life begins at conception and the BABY is unable to implant itself because you have taken artificial birth control and created a "hostile environment" for you child, that pregnancy is no longer viable. That baby no longer has the opportunity at life.

There are circumstances where birth control doesn't work. Yep, it's only 99% effective. So there is a chance that you could become pregnant and nine months later meet your precious baby. But there is also a chance that you and your husband created a child that you will never meet here on earth. There is a chance that you will never meet your child until you meet our Creator. I don't want to wait until then. I can't wait until I can meet my Creator and live in His Kingdom, but I don't want to get there and be ashamed. Ashamed that I did everything in my power to prevent His children from having the opportunity to live this life, to fulfill his or her Godly purpose.

This is hard to write, this is hard to read, this is hard. But this is the truth. Not all will agree and most will try to find away around it; to justify it. 

It's scary to trust. Its scary to think that we are ultimatly not in control. God is.